I think I have found the woman of my dreams....IN MY DREAMS! I have dreamt of her a few times, maybe 4 times over the last year or so, silly perhaps, maybe it's a deep psychological meaning, maybe it's a sign or signs all made up into dream form for me to take things from or maybe it's just an abstract collage of feelings all built up inside me and let loose, maybe it's just random images but whatever it could be I don't give a shit about, when she is there it just makes me happy. When I wake up i'm abit upset to tell the truth and for many reasons, firstly is because the image of her is someone in my life at the moment and I don't particularly get on with her very well whereas this dream woman is everything, I have always liked the real woman but for various reasons we are simply incompatible and even if I tried to make a go of it with her and vice versa it just wouldn't work because of things outside of our control. This woman may look like her but is far from being her, it is hard to say what the dream was now as it's memory has worn off somewhat though I can tell you it was exciting with her, it was comforting and highly valued by me which is so important. These dreams are few and far between which I guess is why I value the encounters so much, if they were more frequent I probably would take them for granted.

I really wish this woman existed in this reality for me, that would be all I wanted and needed.