obstacle of convergence

I do admit I still have a sense of paranoia about Miss, even though I don't care what she gets up to I always seem to catch myself dwelling on it from time to time then I notice she is at home and I somehow feel better. She messaged me today all chirpy, her way of saying come round is to say she needs pampering before going out, I guess it's her way.

I guess I should be very very happy, getting alot of attention lately, someone I haven't chatted to for ages text me yesterday or day before which was strange, parhaps this isn't my fate but theirs and I am just the object of it at the time, so perhaps I am not lucky but rather just in the way so to speak, so what lol, if I am just an obstacle of convergence then hooray for me, maybe when those 'drivers' leave this obstacle then people tend to feel bad/depressed, who knows.