solitary

Been looking after Tempy's place over the last week or so, got a few chores to do round the place but found it very hard to motivate myself, slowly getting there though! Watched a few films online and been driving back and forth from home to check on the cats and stuff. Managed to book my comptia test for next week which is very positive, one step closer though to what I don't know, I always seem to find a reason not to do stuff or just simply don't do it! This crap has to stop, I'm not getting any younger and can't just let things stay this way, stagnant. Conflicting a bit lately too, brothers step son had bad news to do with his health, big tumor which is malignant and hard to work on but there is always a chance, let's hope it has a happy ending. I do keep having moments where I think back on situations in my life and this brings me down, moments I wish hadn't happened and when I feel this way I always end up back there. I am going to have to force myself to get where I want to be, there really is no other way.